Serving as a missionary is difficult! Sun-up to sun-down we are always busy and are never quite getting everything done that needs to get done.
This week I clung to this scripture in the Doctrine & Covenants, Section 80: 1, 3-5:
This scripture helped me to know that even though I'm struggling with the language and struggling with not being able to recall the words I've learned in Tagalog, I can hold on to the knowledge that I have been called to this work by Jesus Christ and that the Holy Ghost is influencing me and everyone around me.
I've been trying to live my life to be more in tune with the Spirit. We were able to listen to a broadcast from Provo, Utah given by Elder David A. Bednar, one of the members of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles. He told about an amazing incident that happened in his life not too long ago which demonstrated how the Spirit can guide and direct our lives:
This is a brief summary and I may not have all the details right: A mission president and his wife were struggling with health issues and would need to be released from their calling. This meant that the church leadership in Salt Lake City would need to interview a couple and ask them to begin serving in their new mission in about three weeks, which is not much time for such a life-changing call to serve. Elder Bednar was inspired to interview a particular couple and asked his secretary to set up an interview as quickly as possible. Later that morning, he heard his secretary on the phone and was surprised to hear her say "what are you wearing today?" When she got off the phone, she reported that while this couple lived over four hours away, they were visiting Salt Lake City that day and were headed to the Temple. They were already dressed appropriately for an in-person interview with Elder Bednar at the church office building! They had lived their lives in such a way that they were influenced by the Spirit, even though they didn't know they were being influenced by the Spirit. Within three weeks, this couple was set apart and they were serving in their new assignment!
When we live our lives according to the Spirit of God, He can work miracles.
I know that reading the scriptures is a good way to invite the Spirit into my life. I bought a new indexed "Quad" this past week (the Bible, the Book of Mormon, the Doctrine & Covenants, and the Pearl of Great Price all bound in one book) and for the first time in my life, I've been actively marking meaningful verses of scripture that I read. It has been a great experience so far!
Tagalog:
We have been very busy learning Tagalog. We're well into the SYL (Speak Your Language) program which requires that we speak Tagalog as much as possible, all day long. In addition to all the vocabulary words we're learning, I also carry around a notebook. When I hear others say a Tagalog word that I don't recognize, I ask the person who said it what the word is, how it's spelled, and I write it in my notebook. I then go back and study those words (I've written hundreds by now) during my "free time."
We're also learning about Tagalog grammar and conjugation and wow is there a lot to learn! I never seem to have enough time to study!
The Manila temple re-opened this week after being cleaned. There were a lot of Filipino church members on the temple grounds and we were asked to go and speak with some of them and try to share a scripture or a spiritual thought. It couldn't have gone worse for me. I blanked and forgot everything I learned in the classroom. That was a very, very humbling and difficult experience for me. This whole week was very difficult.
Food Adventures:
Buckle up! If you are squeamish, turn away now! I ate Balut! I told myself that I wasn't going to try balut while I was serving in the Philippines. The concept is just too gross. Balut is a mostly-developed duck egg and is considered a delicacy here. The Missionary Training Center wanted to give us the opportunity to try it in a "safe" environment. Balut is as gross as it sounds. The taste was horrifying and the texture is slimy and crunchy and gross. I almost didn't make it . . . and my stomach felt pretty unsettled the rest of the day. But, I did it.
I had some cool fruit called rambutan. It's very similar to a lychee (China) which is a really good snow-cone flavor. It's a sweet, white fruit but the outside is red and really hairy and weird. I didn't enjoy seeing a worm on the outside of the fruit after I ate the meat, but I guess I need to get used to that kind of thing.
The Big Picture:
Like I said earlier, it was a very difficult week for me. However, I know that even though I may struggle now, there are people here in the Philippines that need to hear at least a little of the message of the Gospel and it will change there lives.
This is a summary of another talk we heard by Elder Jeffery R. Holland. Again, I may not have all the details correct: Two missionaries were working in Poland just before World War II. They knocked on a door and a woman opened it only about 6 inches. After giving their standard introduction, the woman asked if they were church "ministers." They said "yes" and she quickly said that she vowed many years ago to never speak with another minister. She slammed the door. One of the missionaries was surprised and boldly knocked again. The experience was just about the same and the door was slammed again. Yet again, this missionary knocked and asked her to please explain why she would never speak with another minister. She finally told them of an experience she had several years ago. Her three-year-old daughter passed away and she asked a local minister where her daughter was. That minister informed her that her daughter was in Hell and that she was headed there too because she did not regularly attend church. She vowed to never speak with another minister after that interaction. The missionary was able to share the following scripture from the Book of Mormon:
Moroni 8:19-21